When there’s an urge to write but not a specific vision, what do you write about? What is that calling? Is it a gift, an emptiness, a craving? Is it a voice not being heard or one pushing louder than others to be heard? Whatever it is, it nags at my soul. Often, in the most positive and thought provoking ways. How odd that it comes from within. It adds to the complexity of oneself that such thoughts can boil over without being overtly present and only appearing when called upon in the right moment. When I choose to take advantage of it and fulfill the need, or incite the thoughts forth, I feel validated and thankful to have explored the thoughts. It feels further fulfilling to get feedback and commentary and simply admissions of understanding and relatability from others. It is even more of a treat to hear from someone unexpected that has read them and wants to share their thoughts on the piece or their own experiences. Connection is always the goal. 

Seeing the anniversary of my mom’s death come and go was a bit of a relief. In some ways an accomplishment. In other ways, memories gently revisited. I am thankful the date has gone by and at peace to know it was uneventful. Additionally, I am immensely grateful to know it was felt with ease and simply passed by. I wanted to recognize it and have others do the same, with the purpose of remembering my mom. That is all we can wish for, in the end I think. To be remembered and acknowledged, and if we are fortunate to leave some type of legacy behind. I think it is possible to say my mom did just that. She has five granddaughters that are ready to take on the world. That is a pretty exciting feat. If only she had been fortunate enough to know them.

As the month comes to an end, I am eager to take on the upcoming months with writing. It has been a long time coming to make this blog a reality. A few weeks ago I put a loose schedule together with a theme for each month. For April, my focus will be on current life challenges, goals for the year and how to accomplish them. I would also like to write about tackling tasks that get left for tomorrow’s tomorrow.

I am trying to make use of this urge I feel to write and see where it goes, what words come and what I can learn from it. And more than that, I look for any feedback that comes my way as well as building connection with others.

It has been an amazing month. I closed out a sixteen week job with a family and have begun another short term job with a family I deeply enjoy working for. I am also beginning another job with a family that I will be working for into the late spring. I am home and somewhat settled from the amazing trip Jason and I shared in the Galapagos. It was beautiful, meaningful and beyond my expectations. I am so thankful we had that time together and the good fortune to be able to such a magnificent place. 

I am excited about future travel this year, adventures and milestones with the girls and so many great things happening with our family. I am also excited to start gardening again. After a long night at work, I love walking through my gardens when I get home and seeing the changes that occur day to day. I feel great joy from gardening even when it does not look as I would like. Sometimes is more than wild than I would like or lacks the aesthetic beauty I envision. My gardens contain life and when the stars align, I have the pleasure of helping to continue their life. Rabbits be warned!